My College had a 5 year reunion a few weekends back, which I attended with some of my ol’ college buddies. While sorting through my reunion pictures I could not help but do a compare, contrast with pictures from my college days. Things have changed, I was chubby at the start of college, skinny in the middle and chubby again, so all the pictures of me are…interesting. I got rid of those very lovely bangs I was sporting Freshmen and Sophmore year o’college. I…still look 12 though.

What I do know is, I have changed so much since 2000, it’s really insane to think about. Freshmen year of college I would never have imagined I would be able to drive down to York by myself as stupid as that sounds, or that I would have been living in Albany taking the bus all over the city doing lord knows what, or living here now, working as a librarian. Freshmen year I didn’t know myself at all, I was scared and quiet. I came out of my shell in college, as cliche as that sounds, it is true. I wasn’t worried about how I looked, I wasn’t worried about who liked me, I was having fun with great people. Since graduating I have started to revert back to the old me, the self-hating,  sad Melissa, which is something I am afraid of, and am not sure how to fix. But I’m not giving up without a fight. I would like to be confident, and not always view myself as a child, or as ugly, or as fat, or as stupid. (I have some self esteem issues apparently..oops!)

York College
2000-2004:

York College 5 Year Reunion
May 2009: